I’m desperately trying to remain positive and not give in to the dark cloud of depression that’s been looming around here lately. We so desperately want to just be able to be a family. To raise our sons to be upstanding, honorable and respectable men is our biggest priority and right now it is being squashed in the midst of life! We didn’t plan this – who does? But the foundation is giving way quickly! We are actually having to consider moving a trailer onto our property to live in until this is done. The house is getting to the point where we have to consider it too unstable to live in – I’m very frustrated about this.
We don’t just let things go, we aren’t slackers – we work hard for what we have. Hubby works every opportunity that is given him – even side work in order to provide for us. I in turn stay home to raise our sons and keep our lives in order. We’re in WAAAAAAAAYYYY over our heads here! We’re almost out of money and the most important part of the whole remodel is yet to be done. And get this – we can’t refinance until it is! This means that as of April 1st our 1st mortgage payment will go up another $300 per month suddenly! Do you know how much I could do with $300? And that’s beside the fact that we just don’t have an extra $300 just sitting around every month – ha the very thought!
I hate to say it but I begin to wonder if it will ever be done! Poor Hubby has been working day and night to repair our foundation after long days and even overtime at work. His feet are killing him and he can barely walk, but he keeps at it anyway. I know this is odd for me, but we really are discouraged and yes, even scared! We truly do not know what to do to protect our family.
We even wonder if E’s health issues aren’t due to the various issues in the house. It is cold, damp, drafty and moldy. No matter how hard I try to keep up with it – aaaaah! I especially clean the window in the front boy bedroom. His symptoms are much like I’s (8) that quickly go away when he’s away from these environmental factors for a few days.
This morning Hubby and I were both up before 3am because we heard all sorts of creaking – turns out a rodent was in a wall (yeah, just one more thing) making a huge ruckus!
What do you do? We are so stuck – can’t refinance, can’t sell (don’t really want to move!) – basically we feel stuck!